HONEYMOON: FIN Isabel Angeles
but i’m jealous of the girl with the doe eyes and the spring-fresh face: rosebuds blooming pink in her cherub cheeks, feverish with punch-drunk love for the boy-next-door. do you remember what it was like to see stars after soft lips locked?
shrug the shimmering over-the-moon dust off your shoulders — — the magic has worn off. and though the fireworks burst bright in his eyes and yours the still sky is lonely and longing for light.
don’t you wish you were dipping your hands in jars of honey instead? i would rather be stuck with sweetness, moonstruck and tongue-tied at the brushing of his fingers against mine.
but now it is time to learn how to fall in love with you all over again, each time different than the last. and this is romance at its finest, is it not?
we were royals once — — in the halcyon days where young love reigned. this empire has not crumbled yet. just shaken by the earth quaking beneath our feet and the tempest of thoughts that storm and cloud our clockwork minds.
pieces of our castle crash down and collect dust but we can rebuild this home together and each time we will reassemble it with steel.
step through the illusion and let the painted background tumble over and splinter.
rekindle this flame with the debris of our old ways, watch it grow and warm us. it wavers and falters, shrinks and smokes, but never goes out.
pull my sugared hands out of the glass, wash the liquid off my fingers, intertwine your hand with mine.
so long as you are the keeper of my heart and i the keeper of yours, we will conquer this world together.
— “honeymoon: fin”, i.a.
SHE Isabel Angeles
she is a force of nature. a woman with skin made of steel, silver-tongued, silver-spooned the goddess selene herself, dipped in the finest of stardust.
they immortalize her in camera flashes; her pictures belong in the louvre. all eyes on such a masterpiece — — a twenty-first century jane austen heroine.
she is the girl i wish i was. but she is not me.
in my indecisive soliloquies of ‘to be or not to be’ where i tear my mind apart in the hopes i can rearrange the pages of my story my heartbeat reminds me that i live to be myself and no one else.
i do not glisten like liquid moonlight; i rise bright like the sun, because i am fire and flame. i am day, she is night and none of us are greater than the other for we are two different definitions of beauty.
they tell you comparison will kill you, the hypocrites in the media preaching love and solidarity while they murder female self-esteem for the sake of entertainment between sips of bitter coffee and colgate-endorsed smiles.
molding their idea of perfect into magazines; “you must”, “you have to”, “you should be”—
— but remember that you are enough. the weight of our crowns are nothing compared to the heaviness of the expectations television tyrants try to place on our backs.
hold your head up high, queen. we are stronger than they think we are. my sisters, we are geodes — — hard to break and shining crystal on the inside.
we plant our seeds and mother earth blesses us, her little mortal divinities.
she is a rose, i am a sunflower, and you are whatever you want to be —
— but no matter what we all bloom and grow into beauteous beings.
— “SHE”, i.a.
Tarbiyat- Bisma Kazi